Thursday, February 28, 2008
arhhs . i'm like sad agnn .
why am i alway down .
why cant i be like some ppl ?
who thinks simple and are happy .
i seriously dont wanna be the way i am now .
its just smth natural .
i didnt want that to happen either .
i dont wanna think of what would happen in future .
praying doesnt seem to help .
its hard for others to understand becox they haven been through it .
i seriously dont wanna live life like that .
it would be meaningless if life happens this way .
i need help .
but i doubt anyone would be able to help me .
(dont ask me what problem is that)
stan @ 5:10 AM
"Sorry also must exprain"
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yo !
sch life sucks
i want to have holidays
i wan to wake up at 1 pm and go out at 2 pm
i wanna go club, pub . etc ..
arhh
i think i'm damn loser .
i've been in sajc for 2 months to almost 3 months .
and i cant recognise the buildings and i dont even noe where is the ava !
stupid rite . yea. i'm just super not observant .
it feel so awkward in sch now .
everywhere i go would be mostly acquaintance .
though there are some closer ones around .
i'm just so not ready to study !
i'm still in some kind of slacking mode .
stan @ 3:16 AM
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Saturday, February 23, 2008
its quite amazing that there are ppl who still read my blog.
okay . anyways , i'll make it a point to blog once in a while !
buttt . mostly my post would be emo ones . of which i dunno why .
maybe its a place where i vent out some of my frustrations .
reaching home at 12 am is considered late ?
tt's what my mother thinks .
okay , i know because of that incident , she became very protective .
but i think she is over-protective when she asks me
"who do you go out with ? "
"how you know him or her"
"where does he/she studies ?"
like wtff . just have a kind of feeling that
she would condemn someone if he/she didnt meet her expectations.
people would probably say " she is concerned and worried for you"
but i think she's over - protective lo .
like i'm already 17 !
not very old but not very young either .
i think i'm on my way to be a very weird person .
and next ! my fucking phone .
i accidentally dropped it into the basin .
and water enter it !
so ,, i brought it to sony erricson to repair .
and wtfff . its beyond hope !
i just got it for fuckingly 2 months .
and it fuckingly spoilt ..
so what am i fuckingly supposed to do with it ?
throw it away ?! arhs .
brought it to china town to TRY to repair it .
but i think it would be a fruitless attempt .
stan @ 8:54 AM
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Thursday, February 21, 2008
i screwed myself up .
i screwed up in everything .
i always do the wrong things .
i'm bad at almost everything.
best at slacking .
why do all the weird stuff happen to me .
why do i do silly things to myself ,
causing me to be fuck. short in the end .
why am i diff .
i wan to be normal .
i want to lead a normal life !
but it seemed that i cant.
i hate my fucking existence .
stan @ 3:51 AM
"Sorry also must exprain"
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Wednesday, February 06, 2008
hi people ! its chinese new year !
so happy cny !!!
okay . time flies ar .
its new year again !
and i'm gonna be in army in 2 years time
better not think abt it.
oh . i'm not very enthu abt it .
or i should say . i will SELDOM be enthu abt things !
anyways .. chinese new year is a time where
relatives get tgt to catch up with one another.
what do they ask ?!
"heyy . where are u studying now ?! "
"oh , studying at Saint andrew JC currently"
" huhs so fast ar ?! i tot u secondary only lei "
( do i look like a sec sch KID ? yea i think i do. my bloody shortness ! )
" oh no la ! i had Os last year "
" huhs ? what sch agn ? i dont know what is it ? i dunno all the JCs one "
its funny when they ask for the sake of asking !
okay . next they would turn to my sister .
" hey ! when u getting married ? "
you must be thinking how old is my sister . she's in her mid twenties .
wu liao man !
andd. my mother has been a very irritating one .
" boy ar .. your ear dont put so many holes la ! later all the aunties say ar . you cannot guai abit meh ?! "
wthh . there are ONLY 4 holes and she's making a fuss out of it .
and its not like i will grow stupid-er with more piercings !
okay nvm . new year . must say good things .
be optimistic .
yea . look forward to the great year ahead people ! =)
stan @ 10:22 PM
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Hello
Uncle...Bah Chor Mee one. I want chilli plus tur Kwa plus can I watch your
CCTV playback of Jeff Lopez...=D
